I haven’t blogged since Weber State University’s Fall Semester 2012. I feel like I have abandoned an old friend, and am sheepishly attempting to rekindle and save the tattered relationship. Well, hello, blog. A lot has happened in the last two years. I’m pleased we were able to reconnect, although admittedly, I had to reset my password in order to do so. Nice to see you’ve kept things in order here in my absence.
I’ve thought of you a lot. In moments of crisis, when I mentally composed a Facebook status in my head that I knew was way too long. On long runs, when I saw funny things that I wanted to immediately share with the world. In random instances of life that I wanted to capture in story form, like lightning bugs in mason jars.
So here we are. Since we last met, I had Eli. He is now two and a clone of his daddy. Seriously, never in my wildest dreams did I imagine having a blue eyed child. Mia is 18 and in college. COLLEGE. How is one of my babies studying for finals at the same time the other is beginning potty training?? And then there is Haiden. My one and only H-man. He is smart and funny, and the cause of some of my highest highs as well as the lowest lows. He brings me such joy and such stress. He makes me a better mom and person. My sweet ASD kiddo.
“And so it goes, and so it goes. And you’re the only one who knows.”
My intention is for this blog to be a place of sanctuary for my occasional ranting and raving; a place where I can rejoice in the breakthroughs and accomplishments, the successful mommy moments; as well as a place for pity parties every now and then. Because as Dr. Seuss says:
“You won’t lag behind, because you’ll have the speed.
You’ll pass the whole gang and you’ll soon take the lead.
Wherever you fly, you’ll be best of the best.
Wherever you go, you will top all the rest.
Except when you don’t.
Because, sometimes, you won’t.”
Because as much as I wish this blog was more Carrie Bradshaw and Sex in the City-ish, it’s just not. I’m a mom, working two jobs, taking care of three kids (four if we’re talking about the hubby), trying to balance it all with a run here and there. I want to make healthy meals for my family every day, but some days it’s pizza or chicken nuggets. And I have to believe there are others out there like me- working hard to be the best they can, but also finding themselves just trying to keep their heads above water from time to time.
So to you moms and dads out there, to kids with special needs or not, I raise my glass to you. Enjoy the blog. 🙂